On September 29, 2019, the day began as the most joyous day and ended the most tragic day of our lives. It was a day that would shatter our world and change our lives forever. That morning while we were getting ready for church, I asked the kids excitedly what we would dress up like for Halloween. Our precious Allie Estelle (2 years 9 months) said, “I a superhero!” in true toddler language. Little did we know she would be an actual superhero……she is a Saint!
Her brothers and sister agreed that would be a great idea and we all were excited about what was to come. We went to church and my husband and I couldn’t, for some reason, take our eyes off our precious little girl. We were so in love with her and so amazed at how beautiful, sweet, and tiny she was. I was stroking her forehead and the back of her neck, just pouring my love out on her while my husband, Chris, was enjoying watching her and doting on her as well. She was always the light, joy, and laughter of each day. She brought immense unity and unending love to our family. After church, our teenage daughter and I were getting ready for religious education while my husband, Chris, took our two boys and Allie to the soccer game. A distracted driver whizzed into the parking lot like she was on fire and within seconds our precious angel was gone. She didn’t even know she hit our baby. Our lives were shaken and shattered that day. Since then, it’s been an internal battle of brains, hearts, and faith for us all. Through this struggle, the torment, the tears, and the pain, we have seen God’s precious hand with us every . single . step . of the way!
Psalm 30:11 “You have turned for me my mourning into dancing; you have loosed my sackcloth and clothed me with gladness…”
Allie Estelle White was born December 8th, 2016 (one of the best days of our lives), which also happens to be the Immaculate Conception of Mary (the conception of the Virgin Mary free from original sin so she would be holy enough to give birth to God’s precious son, Jesus. The Catholic Church teaches that God acted upon Mary in the first moment of her conception, keeping her “immaculate“). https://www.franciscanmedia.org/solemnity-of-the-immaculate-conception/ An additional fact to Allie’s birth is that she was born without blood on her and her head was just as perfect as it could possibly be. She was also 6.6666666lbs.
I don’t know God’s meaning behind Allie’s birth weight but we could theorize based on facts. The number 6 represents secular completeness since it is the day God completed the creation of the world. The number 6 in the Bible is all about man and his labor and it signifies man’s shortcomings and the corruption he added into the world created by God. I know God uses tragedy and loss to make a good impact and save the masses of people left here on earth and so this is what I feel his mission was/is for Allie Estelle and her legacy. She left our world to save millions of people and help realign their thinking and their priorities in life. She is the “martyr of busy” and her death shows us that we are all too busy in this world with our distractions, our technology, and our schedules to see life as important. Love those around you, whether you know them or not and pay attention. The phones and schedules can wait because a tardy is NOT worth another tragedy!
Allie was our gift from God! We were using natural family planning and were consistently preventing pregnancy for two years prior to finding out that the month she was conceived, I mysteriously ovulated a week early. Allie was conceived on March 25, 2016 (exact ovulation date as I was tracking it all on an app), which is also the date the angel Gabriel appeared to Mary and told her that she would be mother to baby Jesus. https://www.bbc.co.uk/religion/religions/christianity/holydays/annunciation.shtml
Allie was in our family photo for Easter 2017 and she looks almost identical to Our Lady Lourdes. They were wearing the same color dress, same rosettes on the feet, and same blue colored sash. This outfit and picture was not planned since at the time I had no idea about the story of Our Lady Lourdes (an apparition of Mary). See for yourself. https://catholicexchange.com/a-little-history-of-the-apparition-of-our-lady-at-lourdes
Our Lady Lourdes Allie Estelle White
“SOME OF THE GREATEST ALIGNMENTS OF YOUR LIFE ARE GOING TO TAKE PLACE AT ROSH HASHANAH, ENTERING INTO 5780 AND BEYOND” -Lana Vawser Ministries
Another clue into Allie Estelle’s importance and her God-given purpose is that she passed away on September 29, 2019 at about 1:30pm, which just so happens to be the start of Rash Hashana (Jewish New Year). In Jewish terms, the year 2020 is the Hebraic year 5780. God spoke to a woman who is extremely religious and writes a blog about her experiences with God. She wrote this blog on September 20th and it explains that God spoke to her about the significance of this Rash Hashana. God told her “There will be an ACCELERATION OF ALIGNMENT that will take place at Rosh Hashanah and in the entering into of 5780”. Lana Vawser is the blog writer who heard from God and she said, “The Lord showed me glimpses of the magnitude of 2020 and the Hebraic Year 5780 and what He kept repeating was “It is bigger than you realize. It’s bigger than you can imagine. What I am going to do is so completely NEW that require new alignment and alignments in order to carry what I am going to release.”” When I read that, I couldn’t help but remember that Allie’s story has so far been shared to millions of people over social media including blogs and neighborhood apps. People have been responding in a resounding way by offering to slow down, pay attention, and realize the most important things in life are children and/or each other! Then I reflected on the number of people who showed up to honor Allie and our family which was around 800-1,000 people, also the most in the church’s long history. Allie has made a massive imprint on this world already since her story has been shared not only in several states but also in different countries and it is just going to keep getting bigger as time progresses. She will make an impact on this world like NEVER before. I am so proud to be her Mommy. Maybe this is just one event to start this plan that God has for us but either way, I feel that God intended for Allie to take this world by storm and then come home. I can feel more at peace knowing his plan for her even though I miss her more than anyone could ever imagine.
Also in that blog, God told her, “There is going to be MAJOR wealth transfers that are going to take place where the wealth of the world will be handed to many in the body of Christ on unprecedented levels to EXTEND the Kingdom of God and see the Gospel extended throughout the earth. The Lord is going to move the hearts of those who do not even know Jesus yet to financially give into the Kingdom of God to see the Gospel extended.” When I reflected on what this meant, I realized that many, many people (don’t know exact numbers) have given to the churches in Allie’s name. Even people who are not Christians or who may not even go to church have given money in Allie’s name to churches all over the state and some in different states. We’ve seen this prophesy (if that’s the right term) become reality through our sweet precious baby girl.
Here’s an even greater sign that I experienced. I received some beautiful handmade leather bracelets with scriptures on them from a friend of mine who used to do bible study with me. She sent a mass of them for us to pick out our favorite. I chose the one that said “Esther 4:14 This is the moment for which you have been created”. It was particularly meaningful to me since Esther (our friend who is a nun) has helped us through this journey of grief and healing to see God’s comforting hand in our lives every day. And the verse was special because I know God created Allie for this purpose, to change lives. After I had picked out my bracelet, I read the blog written by Lana Vawser, and in it she says………..
4:14 LIKE YOU HAVE NEVER SEEN! I heard the words “4:14 like you have never seen”. When I asked the Lord what He was saying I heard the words “Esther 4:14”
I was immediately blown away and had goosebumps down my arms. I have known through this journey and all these signs that God has been with us, but I didn’t realize this was his plan for Allie all along until we read this which put everything together. I love how God manages to only give us bits and pieces of information at a time because otherwise we wouldn’t be able to process or understand all that he has for us. He is such an amazing and sovereign Lord/Father. Please feel free to read the blog by Lana Vawser, it is inspiring and eye opening! https://lanavawser.com/2019/09/25/some-of-the-greatest-alignments-of-your-life-are-going-to-take-place-at-rosh-hashanah-entering-into-5780-and-beyond/
This story doesn’t end here, it’s only beginning. I know this is a lot to try to process (it was for me as well), but I will continue to share our experiences and the signs that have all pointed to our Lord. It is inspiring and brings hope in a world where sometimes it’s hard to find. We ARE Allie Estelle’s voice…..ALL of US….. and together we can continue the mission to save other children, bring more respect for life, and above all else point people to God where they may not have seen his hand in their lives. God is ALWAYS here with us. We just have to open our hearts and our minds to receive the messages he is giving. LOVE each other with all your heart and cherish each moment.
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